As I look back on 2014, it was a great year. But I sort of just went through the motions. . . I kept my job because that’s what you do when you don’t know where you want to be. We bought a house because that’s what you do when you’re financially stable and at our age. We go to church because that’s what you do on Sundays.
But there was never any intent behind much of what I did.
I like my job . . . I love our house . . . obviously I understand the need behind going to church, I don’t regret anything or any decision, but in 2014 there was a lot of just doing what I thought was expected of me not what I wanted to do.
So this year 2015 I decided to come up with a word to focus on for the year. Intent was my first thought, but I wanted something with more pizzazz. So I googled it for synonyms . . . purpose came up of course, but that seemed generic. But then this caught my attention. . .
That’s it. I want to live a life I design. I want every decision I make to go towards this life I dream of having. Not what is expected of me. Most of what we think is expected of us is really just in our heads anyway, right?
Every year I make new years resolutions and every year and I’m not committed to them. I make them knowing I’m not fully committed and yet I do it anyway so in 2014 I started doing monthly goals and I actually got things done . . . I was actually accomplished. So for 2015 I intend to the same thing, but there are 3 long term goals I have.
finances – I don’t talk about these a lot on the blog and I don’t intend to. My husband is a stock broker – we are financially stable we’re lucky enough to not have much debt (just our mortgage and a small amount of credit cards/student loans) – but if it were not for him we would not be anywhere near where we are. I am a spender not a saver. So I plan to get that under control in 2015. Mainly stop using my credit cards and get them totally paid off 🙂 Then the money that makes those payments can be saved. I’ll never be super awesome financially like Iron Man – I have no interest in it, but I do have interest in stability. The life I’m designing isn’t totally debt free (i’m ok with car loans and mortgages right now) – but it is stable and has no credit card or student loan debt.
acne – I’ve talked about this a lot here on the blog. And, yes, I do feel superficial making it a long term goal. But having an acne problem is still new for me, and it’s very front and center in my life – especially the blog world. I’ve got it much better than it was with coconut oil, but I still have constant breakouts. A lot of that is my job – a dirty phone is right by my face 80% of my day – but I still need to find a way to get it under control. Just because of my job doesn’t mean I should have an acne filled face. The life i’m designing doesn’t give me a perfect face, but one that doesn’t stress me out even more. One that I appreciate and knows works hard to help me see, smell, and taste.
church – It’s not even really the church I attend – and the part of it that is my heart isn’t ready to address yet – but mostly it’s me on the inside. I need to be more committed to Him and praising His name even when I’m not at church. I want to start doing monthly studies/devotionals on my own and with my husband – not just once a month, but we change it up once a month for our daily thoughts. The life I design is fully committed to the Lord and shows Him of that devotion.
I don’t want anyone to get bored so that’s all I’m going to share for today 🙂 so sorry to the 1 person out there who wanted to hear my detailed January 2015 goals (i’ll tell you at lunch on Sunday, mom). I will get back to the usual monthly goal posts in February.
Do you have a word for 2015 I would love to hear what it is and how you intend to incorporate it into everything?